Wednesday, May 7, 2008

The Hardest job I've ever LOVED!


"Bye, I love you! Have a good day" I call out the door as she hurries to the bus stop.


"I love you too!" She turns and blows me a kiss.


I know she does. I know all my kids love me. I have a drawer full of homemade cards that tell me they do. I have gotten thousands of slobbery kisses and tons of hugs in my eighteen years of being their mom.


But they cannot even begin to understand MY love. From the moment I held each of my four infants in my arms, I adored them. When I saw their tiny fingers and toes, my heart could barely contain what I felt for them. If I close my eyes, I can still smell that sweet baby smell. I can see them sleeping peacefully. I can hear their first cries. I can feel them nestled in my arms as I nurse them. Oh, how I miss it! It really did go too fast.


It hasn't been easy. The sleepless nights that left me exhausted beyond exhausted. The time I spent holding sick kids hoping they would be O.K. The guilt that is part of mom DNA. I know I haven't been perfect. I'm sure they have plenty of material saved up to take to a therapist in a few years. (The hours of listening to my beautiful arias is one shot to their Psyche.) I hope they will never doubt my love for them. And maybe, one day, they will understand my love, when they become a dad and moms.

12 comments:

Blaine, Hillary & Colton said...

I hope I can be a great Mom like you.

Jessica said...

Great post! You are a great mom. It's so true that there are no words that can discribe being a mom, and the love that you have for your kids!

::DANDEE:: said...

You are a great mother. Your children are proof of this.

Sonja said...

Children are a reflection of their parents and I've only gotten to know one of yours, but I can tell you're a wonderful mom.

terramisu said...

wow! That was beautiful, sweet, happy and sad all at the same time! You are a very loving person! I am so excited to have you live close by! I am hoping that some of your GOOD parenting skills will rub off on me! LOL!!!

debsters said...

Sweet baby faces. Courtney is completely recognizable from her baby picture.

Sweet mother=Sweet children. (Dad's pretty sweet too.)

Jan said...

Terri, that was just beautiful. It is so hard to explain how we can love so much at the first glance at our child after they are born. Its like magic. I love how you love them and I know that they have had the best example of someone that they will call blessed. You rock Terri and I hope to see you tonight.

Tharker said...

Beautiful.

Thank you.

Marilyn said...

Awesome post. Thanks!

4starmom said...

All of this rings true to me too.

Jodi said...

That was beautiful Terri!! I loved it and I completely agree!

Amy J. said...

Both the pictures and your writting made me laugh!